Another week...

I know I've been slacking on writing, but I've been busy with workouts, and getting ready to be the Chocolate Fairy at Sherwood Forest Faire. I am having so much fun it is just indescribable.
So as for food and such...
I did loose 1lb. not the result I wanted, but better than nothing and then on Wednesday we measured my BMI and all that good stuff and yup we are right on Target. I wanna loose 103lb. the goal is to get as close as possible to 199 by my 40th birthday. I did really well over the weekend, but then was sick with Allergies Monday and Tuesday. So eating sucked on top of that, my period showed up a week early. Yes it's all the good things at once.
But that aside, I had another breakthrough, I changed my Training Sessions to Monday and Friday, like I used to have them and then on Wednesdays will workout by myself. I also will go in on Tuesdays and Thursdays and do 45mins of Cardio. I love that I can watch Supernatural while on the elliptical or threadmill. So that is bonus.
But the realization was, I love my husband, I really do, but I can't workout in the evenings. No energy. So instead, I get Lars on the bus and then head to the gym. I am done by 9:30 am and I still got time to do stuff for SewGeekAustin and other things.
So yeah realize when your best time to workout is, cause that is important.

Happy Loosing

2 weeks in...

After 3 Training Sessions with my Mistress Carol, I can see improvement in my fitness level. I lost 1lb. Yeah me!!! My mindset is in the right spot. I haven't been in this place for a very long time, but being back feels great. Good things have come our way.
Back to the fitness level thing. For the past 3 sessions, Carol had me do step ups 20x each leg 4 sets. The first time, I wanted to cry, cause I let myself get to that point. Today I had to do that exercise again and lo and behold, I was able to actually talk to Carol without having to stop to catch my breath. So my trainer even said, we are going to move on, on Tuesday. I really enjoy training with her, I know it takes actually 28 days to form a habit, so I really need to work even harder on the diet thing.
So anybody that tells you that they changed their life after a couple of days with some diet / lifestyle, I call BULL. Yes there is so much new information about Nutrition out there since I was on this Journey last time, but it still takes you and your body a while to get used to any change.
I used to tell my clients I am only with them 1 -3 hrs a week, they need to do their homework and 80% of that is what you put into your mouth.
This time my nutrtion approach is, low Carb, High Healthy Fats and High Protein. Now I love Bread and Pasta, but I should not be eating it anymore. So yeah I had a loaf of Ezekiel Bread in the fridge, did I throw it out? No I had one slice for breakfast instead of two. Now it's gone and I won't buy anymore. I don't do Sandwiches for lunch anymore. I make me a salad, with Shrimp or Tuna. Or i just have sliced Veggies, Hummus and Turkey breast lunchmeat. Things like that. I look at it, that it is like when I was pregnant with my kids. I had gestational Diabetes. 1 Carb count was 15gr. I am now allowed to eat 100gr of carbs. I try to eat 100 gr of protein and healhty fats, like Avocados, nuts and Almond Milk.
So it is not as hard as I thought it would be, especially since I mostly plan out my meals and try to eat my carbs in the morning. I eat 1 fruit each days. Raspberries are awesome, cause they are low on sugar.
We'll see where this Journey leads, but I am looking foward to it, especially since my passion for working out seems to have returned. It also helps that Supernatural is on, and I can sneak a peek at the boys during... but shhh, don't tell anybody.

Laters

Monday, Monday, Monday...

Good Morning,

I know there is like only 3 people reading this so, I hope you have an awesome start to the week.

I had a good weekend, tried really hard to stay on track and I did not gain weight this weekend. Woohoo me. 

So those brownies I was talking about on my twitter on Friday, (btw my twitter is @swissmom8873) turned out yummy and here is as promised the recipe for it.

Gluten Free and Sugar Free Brownie bites:

200gr Semi-Sweet or Dark Chococlate (about 1cup)

200gr Butter (14tbsps)

Melt over medium heat and turn off heat.

4 Eggs

20 packs of Stevia (if you wanna use sugar it's 200gr or 1 cup)

beat until foamy.

add

1 pinch of salt

1tsp baking powder

1tsp Vanilla

add

200gr almonds ground (it's about 1.5 cups of whole almonds, I grind mine myself in the food processor)

mix in the chocolate mixture.

Pour into a prepared 8x8 pyrex pan and bake at 320F for 40mins. do the toothpick test.

This makes 16 Brownies.

Enjoy!!!

I am going to cry...

No not because I am sad or in pain, no I am that angry with myself.

I had my training session today and I was huffing and puffing. I am so mad, that I let myself get this bad again. I just want to punch myself. Yes I can blame tons of things, but in the end it comes down to me. I wasn't strong enough to say NO. I was the one that tried to please everybody and in the meantime forgot to take care of myself. I am the one that listened to people even thou deep down in my heart I knew better.
I told my Trainer that I wanted to cry. And she said the best thing: But you are here to change it. A lot of people don't. That simple answer, got me thru the rest of the workout.
I like her style and I think we have a good thing going.

Tonight it's off to Faire again, I have gotten some good Foodchoices packed: hummus and veggies, hard boiled eggs, tuna salad (not eating the crackers), turkey and cheese, almonds and I got some gluten free Cashew snacks. For Anika I also got Fruit Leather. Oh and Raspberries, cause they don't have a lot of sugar. I also got Stevia, I am going to make a batch of regular gluten free brownies and then I make one with Stevia just to compare. And man if they are good, I got something for my sweet tooth.

So that's that for now, I am sure I will be sore, but to prevent most of it. I will drink lots of water and take IbuProfen.

Laters

Nutrtion, Exercise blah blah blah.

I am kidding...

I went to meet with my Trainer yesterday, even thou I felt like crap, I got there early and did 20mins on the Elliptical and burned 200 calories. So I meet with Carol and man she is a fire cracker, I like her a lot. We talked about food. And I am now on a high Protein, High (healhty) Fat and low Carb diet. I was also told to watch my gluten intake. Hello Glutards I might be joining you guys. I can have Bacon, yes you read that right, but it has bot Natrium free, so guess what? I am on the hunt for that. ;D
I am to do Cardio at the gym 3x week for 30mins as of right now, I am also taking Vitamin D and a new Multi. We shall see how that goes, cause I am so bad on that.
I am going in tomorrow to do CardioPoint and CaloriePoint to figure out my perfect fatburn zone and metabolism. I am looking forward to that.

So this is short and sweet, will keep you posted.

Bye

Dealing with Grief...

12yrs ago, one day after my daughter's first birthday I lost my dad to Cancer. I have been angry at him, cancer, myself ever since. Some years I am ok, some years I just curl up and cry all day long. Today, I guess was an ok Day, somewhat in the middle. 

I got up and remembered and I teared up. Then I had to work and fill orders for SewGeek. I also watched a Pilot I wanted to watch since Friday, Ty Olsson is in it and it's called Borealis. You should find it and watch it. I am also glad I had friends online that send me uplifting messages. I send my mom and my sis a short message, that I am thinking of them. Then my friend posted that his dog of 16yrs passed away and that is when I lost it. I cried and decided to take a nap. Well I slept for 3hrs. *sigh

Then I ordered Pizza and they messed up and I cried again. Yes I cried cause the pizza messed up.

But I did eat ok today. Normally I would sit and just eat chips and crap and just not do well. I did ok today.

Day 4 Really?

First off yesterdays stats:
1324 Calories Eaten
64oz. Water
No exercise except some 3's and 7's

This weekend will be a challenge and for that matter every weekend till the end of March. I am part of the Cast at Sherwood Forrest Faire. So that means Camping every weekend and not being on a set schedule, so I need to make sure I have nutritious snacks in my pouch. It will fuit, carrots and some protein bars. I already cooked dinner for Saturday, it's stew and I am feeding an army. But I am going to work hard to track all the food. I use an app called Lose It. You can find their web-site here. The one think I really dig is that you can scan barcodes of food. I used Fit Day before and had to enter everything, so this makes traking easier. Weigh in is on Monday, I will write again then, there will be no blog updates over the weekend.

So... Now to another Dieting Tid bit that you didn't ask for. When I was a Trainer, I really loved helping people, hunting things... oh wait wrong profession. No seriously, when you hire a trainer, you want them to help you right? So as a Trainer, we give you, nutrition information, recommendations and also workouts. Now it is up to you to do so, but if you want results you really should follow the recommendations. I had a trainer while I was a trainer and followed the recommendations, that was when I fit into my size 12 jeans. So I am just going to rant here. Why do you not do what is recommend and then complain it's not working. Or even better, the people that start something and then after 2 days already start to tell other people what to do and how to do it. Yup we have those people out there too. they do some reading and then think they are the expert. Anyway I am done ranting now.

So here is a recommendation from me to you. Read Tosca Reno's Eat Clean Diet. It has wonderful tips on eating healthy.
Here is the Breakfast in a Blender I made to day.
1 scoop of Protein Powder ( I used one scoop of USANA's Nutrimeal)
2/3 Cups 2% milk
1Tbsp Peanut Butter
2 Tbsp apple sauce unsweetened
1 banana (if you can use a frozen one)
1/3 cup of Oatmeal
1/2 cup of Ice
Blend and enjoy this version has 332 Calories, 14.5gr. Fat, 31 Carbs, 5g Fiber, 15.5gr Protein.

Stay Healhty my friend.

Day 3

3 days in a row, wow, I am on a roll.

I told my husband today that I finally have the right mindset. Yeah you can have all the tools in the world, diets, personal trainers, gym memberships, but if your mind is not in it, then there is now way you will succeed. It rained hard here, and I was thinking of skipping the gym, but then decided otherwise. I went and I am so glad I did. I got my appointment set for my first session with my Trainer, she is also a Pilates instructor. It's next Tuesday at 9am, I am looking forward to it. Not sure she can compare to Alex, my little firecracker, but we will see. Then I got on the Elliptical and didn't want to quit after 10mins. I actually enjoyed it, so I did 30mins of fatburn. I was wearing my heart rate monitor band and the machine said I had burned 365cals. Not bad.
I also logged all my food for the 3rd day in a row, I hope to print it out and take it to my appointment with my trainer. I am playing the Eye of the Tiger in my mind right now, cause that's how I feel. I am concentrating on the price and it is a healthy, happy me.
I also started to tweet a picture of my breakfast every morning with the calorie count, just to start the day right and it seems to work.
Today is my 15th Wedding Anniversary. It snuck up on me, I didn't even realize it until I looked at my calendar today. So I could skip the gym, but now, Steve and I decided since we are planning a little get away trip in April, we are totally going today and just enjoy each other's company. I am also trying to figure out how to get movies on my Nexus 7 so that I can watch while I am running from the wolves.
So yeah things are going good, and I really want this again, I have a closet full of awesome clothes that don't fit me at the moment, so I wanna be that hot mama, especially when I turn 40 this year.
So what Mindset are you in today?

Toodles
C.

Day 2

Day one is done. I didn't get exercise in it was pouring rain and we had flood warnings, so I stayed home I did practice my 3's and 7's for a bit. Eating wise I did well, I ate 1500 calories, which is right about where I should be. Now on the waterfront, I did amazing. I drank wait for it.... 96oz. I usually don't drink anything, so drinking that much is huge for me.

Today I made oatmeal for breakfast with dried Apricots, Dates and Blueberries. A tsp of brown sugar and that was it. I know I can do this.
It is a busy day today, I have to get fabric, to fill more orders, a new wig head, since my daughter took mine and I think I am going to see if my hubby wants to have lunch. They have a nice Salad bar at his work, so I can eat healthy, it is just nice to have lunch with him.

2012 ended on a high note, so I am praying that we can carry the good fortune further into 2013. I am working on myself as well. I don't want to be the frumpy lady anymore. I am turning 40 this year and it will be mine to take. I will look good and feel amazing. So there.
Off to drink more water, so that I can float away.

Laters
C.

Day 1 and just ramble

Today is the Day. I am logging my food, I actually got up early enough and made me breakfast. I made an almost egg white omelet with mushrooms, bell peppers and feta cheese in it. I also had a slice of toast and Jam (normally I would have 2 slices) I am nice and full. I also filled the water bottle and it is next to me.
As for exercise, I am meeting Steve at the Gym tonight and will do Cardio. I am also making my appointment with my new Trainer today. No excuses.
I realized this past weekend, how bad out of shape I was. Walking that uneven terrain at Faire and dance practice. I really hope that I can get better stamina in the next 4 weeks, just a bit so that I am not out of breath easy. I am having so much fun with this, I am developing this character and playing with other people. I never knew how much I would enjoy this acting thing.
This week I have some work to do, not using contractions is one of them. I also need to work on "Widgets" costume, we decided to make her a purple west and cloak with detachable hood. It will be pretty epic. Then "Schoggi" is a different story. I need to dye the first underskirt, then make the over skirt that looks like poured chocolate the vest and wings. The good thing is the wings are not huge, I figure it would be funny if a voluptuous fairy would have tiny wings. I have pretty big ears and the head piece is done as well and everybody loved it. :D
But anyways, the reason I really need to get on the ball as well. Steves cousin is getting married in October and for once I don't want to be the fat lady in the wedding. I was the FAT one at my own wedding, Steve's brother's wedding and my sister's wedding. So I say: "NO MORE" so here we go. There is also a very personal thing that I wanna do this. So I just need the strength and mind set that I had in  2006, also I want my husband to be that hunk again. (he's gained some weight as well and I can tell he is not happy) He had those nice shoulders with the dimples, OMG. Anyway, going off a tangent here. So let's do this 2013 is going to be my year.

2012 regrets

You might ask why regrets and not looking foward to things? Well I just read a blog entry and this person was talking about forgiveness, so I know deep down I should forgive, but they have wronged me and are oblivious to how badly so it's really hard to forgive.

I have regrets for 2012 my main regret is that I didn't do what I did to save my marriage earlier. I regret not saying NO earlier, NO can be such a liberating word. I am a person that always tries to please everybody and don't get anybody angry. Maybe that is the Swiss in me. But no more, if it jeopardizes time with my husband and my family? Then you will hear the word NO from me. I won't be any longer taken advantage of cause I have the need to please you. So yes it is selfish, but you know it is a healthy selfish.

Yes I do have regrets, but they are mended now. My husband and I are in a great place, we realized we survived this we can pretty much go thru anything. We've been together 17yrs and married for 15 in 12 days.
So yes he has been my rock and I am thankful for it.

I have a very blessed life, and forgiveness might come, but it seems not anytime soon.

2013 here we go...

So I know it's been a while, but I was quiet busy. Sew Geek Austin is much more successful than I had ever dreamed it would be. During Thanksgiving the orders just have piled in and now it slowed down a bit.
Lots has happened. We are settled in here in our new house, it is gorgeous and I am really starting to like it here in Katy.
I haven't been this happy in a long time. I don't wake up in the middle of the night afraid to look at the phone that there could be a message of yet another think that I supposedly messed up. I am not jumping when my phone rings cause I know I won't hear from her. I am at the point where things are really falling into place again like they were in 2006.
In retrospective 2006 was one of the best years in my life. I got into the best shape I had every been, but I had taken things for granted. I am sure that these past 4 years have been a test for me. And I finally passed it. I tell my husband every day, how much I love him. I hug my kids and tell them how much they mean to me.
So for Christmas I asked my husband for Training sessions and he being the sweet man he is got me some. So on January 7th, I am heading to the gym to set up my first session. I know that I know what to do, heck I was a Trainer for 2 years, but I just need that kick in the butt again like I had in 2006. You ask why not this week? I have 4 Teenagers here at my house this week, to celebrate my daughter's birthday. Yeah I am a glutton for punishment, but it's fun. So next week it is.
In other news, I joined the fae cast for Sherwood forrest faire. Yeah I know "she" will be there, but I am going to be up on the hill and never have to really go down into that corner of the faire. So we are good. lol
So that's what is going on here.

Cheers
Claudia