I got so busy on Friday and the weekend that I didn't workout and not particularly watched what I ate.
So I gained 2lb. back. I tried to do Day 10 workout, but couldn't finish it :( But I am doing it again tomorrow.
I have been waking up every day at 5:30am which really stinks. I also am procrastinating again which I hate. I can feel myself slipping into a depression, but I am doing my best to not letting this happen. There is so much good and positive in my life, so I am focusing on that.
It is not easy to function when this hits, but I am working on it.
Also I quit drinking water again which is so bad, so here i am with my big glass of water and a pretty straw.
I can do this!!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
Thursday, February 5, 2015
Day 9
Wow, what a week and a few days it has been.
I had some stress, but I managed to eat crap and cope instead with writing. I am actually quiet proud of that.
So things I have noticed so far.
I put on my pants this am and I didn't have to suck in to button and zip them. I noticed my t-shirt wasn't to tight around my arms.
I also noticed that it's been over a week that I took a nap in the afternoon. I am not nearly as tired as I used to be come 2pm.
I ate at a restaurant and I still lost weight. I am drinking a lot more water and hence my bathroom breaks are more often which equals more walking time. I think my kidney's are like WTF? Why do we suddenly have to work so hard? Cause I used to be able to go all day without drinking anything but 2 cups of coffee.
Going low carb is not as hard as I thought it would be.
I do see my goal and it's actually more of a pants size than a weight loss. I wanna be a 12 maybe even a 10 and I will be happy. Last time I did this in 8months I know I can do it again, I just don't know how long it will take.
The Body Combat program is 60 days, so we'll see.
I had some stress, but I managed to eat crap and cope instead with writing. I am actually quiet proud of that.
So things I have noticed so far.
I put on my pants this am and I didn't have to suck in to button and zip them. I noticed my t-shirt wasn't to tight around my arms.
I also noticed that it's been over a week that I took a nap in the afternoon. I am not nearly as tired as I used to be come 2pm.
I ate at a restaurant and I still lost weight. I am drinking a lot more water and hence my bathroom breaks are more often which equals more walking time. I think my kidney's are like WTF? Why do we suddenly have to work so hard? Cause I used to be able to go all day without drinking anything but 2 cups of coffee.
Going low carb is not as hard as I thought it would be.
I do see my goal and it's actually more of a pants size than a weight loss. I wanna be a 12 maybe even a 10 and I will be happy. Last time I did this in 8months I know I can do it again, I just don't know how long it will take.
The Body Combat program is 60 days, so we'll see.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
Day 7 Again
I need to write this down otherwise I am going bonkers....
So 5 months ago at a convention someone stole a wooden sign from a friend of mine's Wreath that I had made.
Well a couple of days ago we found that sign and all the evidence points to one person and this person also made inappropriate message to friends of mine at the time of the conventions and later denied it all saying being married and having a child.
Well sine this person has been caught in a lie, I was wondering if he/she really worked where they said. So I called the place and asked. And when they asked what this was in regard I very politely said thank you for the information and hung up.
Well not an hour later I get a phone call from a wireless phone, it is the person that I called about and asking why I called his work. I told him I had no idea and wished him a good day.
2hrs after that his workplace calls again and asks why I called, I declined once more and told them to please stop calling me. Then after I pick up my daughter form school. I came home and asked my son if anybody called and he said yes. So I checked caller ID and sure enough the work place called again. So I called them back and told them they need to stop calling, that I told them I don't know who called this morning and if they don't stop this is harassment and then they hung up on me.
Well come 4:11pm, this person calls me, I picked up said stop calling me and hung up. Well they called again. So I picked up and told the person to stop calling me of I will file a harassment claim. The person was like I just wanna know why you called my work I told them that yes I called but that it is none you their business and they need to stop calling me. Then they kept on insisting that they have a right to know and I kept declining. I might have gotten a bit loud, but I never was really rude. The person kept interupting me and never would let me finish. So finally I just said, a friend of mine heard that they had lied about things and wanted to know if they worked where they said. Apparently that still wasn't good enough. So they still kept going on and on about how they has a right to know and I told them that it not illegal for me to call a company and see if somebody worked there. Well apparently that wasn't working either, so finally I just wished them a good day, told them to stop calling me and hung up.
I since then have blocked this persons number and worknumber, facebook, twitter and deviant art.
No this person has taken to ask my friends about me and what is going on. This is really freaking me out. This person also knows about my business which is a bit freaky. But not that i have written it all out, I am feeling much better. My anxiety was at 100 and I have been crying a lot and have a headache. Thank Chuck, Supernatural is on later tonight.
Thanks for listening.
Normally I would stress eat over this, but instead I am here on my computer writing this all down. Baby Steps, Baby Steps, I can't let this person ruin my success.
So 5 months ago at a convention someone stole a wooden sign from a friend of mine's Wreath that I had made.
Well a couple of days ago we found that sign and all the evidence points to one person and this person also made inappropriate message to friends of mine at the time of the conventions and later denied it all saying being married and having a child.
Well sine this person has been caught in a lie, I was wondering if he/she really worked where they said. So I called the place and asked. And when they asked what this was in regard I very politely said thank you for the information and hung up.
Well not an hour later I get a phone call from a wireless phone, it is the person that I called about and asking why I called his work. I told him I had no idea and wished him a good day.
2hrs after that his workplace calls again and asks why I called, I declined once more and told them to please stop calling me. Then after I pick up my daughter form school. I came home and asked my son if anybody called and he said yes. So I checked caller ID and sure enough the work place called again. So I called them back and told them they need to stop calling, that I told them I don't know who called this morning and if they don't stop this is harassment and then they hung up on me.
Well come 4:11pm, this person calls me, I picked up said stop calling me and hung up. Well they called again. So I picked up and told the person to stop calling me of I will file a harassment claim. The person was like I just wanna know why you called my work I told them that yes I called but that it is none you their business and they need to stop calling me. Then they kept on insisting that they have a right to know and I kept declining. I might have gotten a bit loud, but I never was really rude. The person kept interupting me and never would let me finish. So finally I just said, a friend of mine heard that they had lied about things and wanted to know if they worked where they said. Apparently that still wasn't good enough. So they still kept going on and on about how they has a right to know and I told them that it not illegal for me to call a company and see if somebody worked there. Well apparently that wasn't working either, so finally I just wished them a good day, told them to stop calling me and hung up.
I since then have blocked this persons number and worknumber, facebook, twitter and deviant art.
No this person has taken to ask my friends about me and what is going on. This is really freaking me out. This person also knows about my business which is a bit freaky. But not that i have written it all out, I am feeling much better. My anxiety was at 100 and I have been crying a lot and have a headache. Thank Chuck, Supernatural is on later tonight.
Thanks for listening.
Normally I would stress eat over this, but instead I am here on my computer writing this all down. Baby Steps, Baby Steps, I can't let this person ruin my success.
Monday, February 2, 2015
Day 6 and still going
I started this Journey almost a week ago. Here I am... I had one full rest day. Sunday.
I was supposed to rest on Saturday, but had rehearsal at the Renaissance Fair and walked 6 miles. So that was a no go. And yesterday I was plagued by a nasty headache that just did not want to go away.
So today I took responsibility and did yesterday's and today's workout. I am feeling free from the cage my mind was in that I wasn't good enough to reach my goal again. That I can't do it. I am down 3lb. I actually took before pictures and measurements. I got a go ahead to day from my foot doctor and he said it's ok to exercise and it the pain comes back I can get another shot in 4 months. Or do the surgery to remove the spur. I try to avoid that.
This Journey won't be easy, but it won't be as tough as the many tries I had and failed. I am finally feeling free from the one person that held this huge cloud over my head, it only took me 3yrs to finally let it all go, but I noticed in the past week, I haven't given her much thought. So this is a huge step.
Here we go onto a new me.
Oh and having Rach and Dan cheer you on is a big plus.
I was supposed to rest on Saturday, but had rehearsal at the Renaissance Fair and walked 6 miles. So that was a no go. And yesterday I was plagued by a nasty headache that just did not want to go away.
So today I took responsibility and did yesterday's and today's workout. I am feeling free from the cage my mind was in that I wasn't good enough to reach my goal again. That I can't do it. I am down 3lb. I actually took before pictures and measurements. I got a go ahead to day from my foot doctor and he said it's ok to exercise and it the pain comes back I can get another shot in 4 months. Or do the surgery to remove the spur. I try to avoid that.
This Journey won't be easy, but it won't be as tough as the many tries I had and failed. I am finally feeling free from the one person that held this huge cloud over my head, it only took me 3yrs to finally let it all go, but I noticed in the past week, I haven't given her much thought. So this is a huge step.
Here we go onto a new me.
Oh and having Rach and Dan cheer you on is a big plus.
Thursday, January 29, 2015
The Road so far...
The past year has been a struggle, getting sick and injury, but 2015 is the year. I have motivation. There is a person that used to be in my life, that has given me the motivation to reach my goal. I also look like a beached Whale in my Jared Padalecki Photo Op. And I don't like it.
So I digress, here I am on Day 2 of Body Combat 90 Days.
I did Day 1 yesterday, had to modify some stuff, since it's been my first day in forever to actually workout. But I made it thru the 30mins and I felt awesome. I didn't feel like i had to take a nap. And after the workout I cried. Yup I cried, but not because I hurt, but I felt bad. How could I have let myself go? How could I have let this person, control my life? Why did I ever quit working at the gym? All these guilty feelings came up and I cried.
But then I stood up, shook them off and was proud, I made the first step. I finished Day 1.
I am about to do the Day 2 workout and then hit the Grocery Store. I have to get food to fuel the fight. I really like that Les Mills has Combat now to do at home. I missed doing it and I wanna stay with the good fight and eat right again.
I can do it. I don't want to go thru drastic measures like surgery. Cause after surgery you still have to change your whole lifestyle which you have to do anyways to loose weight.
I can do this... I've done it before. My goal is to get to this again:
So I digress, here I am on Day 2 of Body Combat 90 Days.
I did Day 1 yesterday, had to modify some stuff, since it's been my first day in forever to actually workout. But I made it thru the 30mins and I felt awesome. I didn't feel like i had to take a nap. And after the workout I cried. Yup I cried, but not because I hurt, but I felt bad. How could I have let myself go? How could I have let this person, control my life? Why did I ever quit working at the gym? All these guilty feelings came up and I cried.
But then I stood up, shook them off and was proud, I made the first step. I finished Day 1.
I am about to do the Day 2 workout and then hit the Grocery Store. I have to get food to fuel the fight. I really like that Les Mills has Combat now to do at home. I missed doing it and I wanna stay with the good fight and eat right again.
I can do it. I don't want to go thru drastic measures like surgery. Cause after surgery you still have to change your whole lifestyle which you have to do anyways to loose weight.
I can do this... I've done it before. My goal is to get to this again:
I know it's a long road, but I will get there eventually. Thanks for sticking with me reading all this. I try my best this time around to blog consistently.
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