Foodporn the healthy way

So, this weight loss thing is going slow very slow. But I am working on it. Log the food, but I also love to try new recipes. So I decided the successful ones are going to be on my blog. Maybe that will help me to keep going.

It's fall and I love pumpkin, so I wanted to make pumpkin pancakes I found a recipe on food.com but I changed it slightly.

Pumpkin Pancakes:
2 1/3 cups of Bisquick
1 1/4 cups of 2% Milk
1/3 cup of pumpkin from the can
2 eggs
2 tblsp. Sugar
1 tsp. chinese 5 spice
1/2 tsp. cinnamon

Mix it all together. I got 15 pancakes out of it. And here is the nutrition Info:
99cals., 3gr/fat, 1g/sat.fat, 30gr./cholest., 202gr./sodium, 15gr/carbs, 3g/sugar, 3gr./protein

They were pretty dang good. I used sugar free syrup on them and had 3 of them.

Fail... (explicit language cause I am angry)

I failed on every single one of my goals this week. Why? I don't know. *sigh

I could blame it on the fact that Steve is gone for the week, but I don't think so. I think it had more to do with a flare up of mild depression. I was doing good Monday and Tuesday, Wednesday I found out that a former friend of mine decided to harp on me again. Which is nothing new, she does that with everybody that leaves her and of course it's all their fault and never hers. ( I am starting to wonder, cause by now I know at least 6 people in her live that happened to) Oh well I should not linger here. I realize that is a dark time especaily the last two years of our so called "Friendship", I alienated myself from other friends even from my family. Finally when my sister came to visit, she woke me up out of this indifferent coma I was in. My house was a catastrophe when she got here and we had a huge fight, but in the end we found each other again and I am so greatful for her. I had not been taking care of myself, I let myself gain the weight back cause I was to depressed to cook healthy or anything the like. So this here is part of my therapy. If I go off on a tangent, now you know why. I figured if I start to write down what is going on in my noggin, maybe I can get over whatever it is and take care of myself again.
But anyway, on Wednesday I sat at the computer crying, cause I was accused of copying Teablends on Adagio. Seriously? She had introduced me to Tea, yes I give her that. I really wanted to break all ties, so I am not going to order Tea from her blends. So I decided I want to try to create my own teas and yes one of them is close to one of hers. But fuck you bitch, you don't have a monopoly on Tea. Anyways that put me in a very emotional state.
Later I found this beautiful Video of Jensen Ackles one of my Favorite Actors at the moment, (he is fighting Hugh Jackman for number 1) singing this beautiful song and I am bawling again. (Video here).
I also miss my husband, he is in Houston for work and will be home tonight, but then I am leaving tomorrow for the Convention in Dallas. Then he is home for a week and then gone again for a week to San Francisco.
That will be the last time we have to do this for a while I hope.
And then comes the dreadded day of October 8th. When we close on the new house. Which I love the new house, but I really don't want to move. You must understand. I lived in Zurich for 22yrs then moved to Austin and that has been it for me. I love Austin, and I just got happy again I met so many great people this summer and got to know people better and now I have to leave. This just fucking sucks.
But it is a great Carreer move for hubby, I can do my etsy thing anywhere, and we are only 2hrs away from Austin. So yeah, it won't be to bad, but I can be a bit annoyed, pushing my bottom lip out.
Wow this post turned in to a huge rant about my life, how it sucks. LOL Well it doesn't I am very blessed, having my family, friends, we are in good hands. I am just frustrated how a small thing sent me into this hole, so maybe writing about it helped.

Meal Plan Monday:

So this is the 3rd week of sticking to the meal plan. My husband is out of town for the whole week, so it's me and the kids. We are having friends come over on Tuesday and he loves German Food, so I am making something special for him.
Goals for this week are:
Sticking to the mealplan, track each bite of food on Loose it .com. I have their app on my phone and it is awesome cause you can scan the barcode and it enters it. I am amazed at how many HEB products are in the database.  And last but not least I need to drink more, water and tea. I made an awesome tea blend on Adagio, it's called Dean's Apple Pie Life and it's a Rooiboos blend. It is very yummy iced, so I made me a big jug full of that for today.
Exercise:
Not much going on there, cause I've been waking up almost every night with pain in my foot. I really want to have that healed. Hopefully by the time we get to Houston, I can start walking again.

So here is the Meal Plan:
Monday:
Tortelini with Spinach, Garlic, Tomato Sauce

Tuesday:
Spaetzli, Red Cabbage and Schnitzel

Wednesday
Sweet Potato Soup with Quinoa (new recipe)

Thursday:
Angel Hair Pasta with Asparagus and Shrimp (new recipe)

Friday:
Sun Dried tomato stuffed Chicken breast with rice.

Weekend: I am going to Dallas to see the Supernatural Boys. :)

Friday Weigh in, a day late

I am down to 265, that is a nother lb. gone. I didn't get around to posting yesterday. I am pretty pleased as of right now, cause I haven't exercised, but I watched what I was eating, so I think I did ok.

Baby Steps...

So the Doctor said I don't need the book and just wear whatever I want, I just need to be comfortable. Well guess what I am sitting here barefoot. Yup that is when it doesn't hurt. I woke up a few times last night in pain but not to shabby.
I even went to walk Zoe our dog yesterday morning, and will do so again tonight.

I just made lunch for me and I am surprised I couldn't eat it all, so Steve is eating the leftovers. I actually physically felt full, which rarely happens, I always I need to finish my plate. But no, I am a grown up now and I can leave food if I need to. lol

I am feeling good, my mood is pretty good, and I am at the point where I realize every day, how blessed I am to have such a wonderful husband, kids, friends and that SewGeekAustin is doing so well. I even forgave HER, cause I see every so often on Twitter what is going on with her and I do hear from friends. And I feel nothing but petty for her.

It is oh so very strange, how ever since this happened, good things are coming our way. Steve and I are stronger than ever, we still have minor disagreements, but we haven't had a big fight in a while. The house is actually livable again and laundry is getting done, even thou it takes more than one day. We are also moving, building a house, are very blessed with the great job that Steve got. So all around we are doing well. I don't know if it has anything to do with the big bang, but it sure does feel that way.

So anyways, mental healthy is just as important for this journey than physical health.

Friday is weigh in. See you then.

Why this weight gain this time is bad...

Well there are some things that I do when I am at this size and now they annoy me, I've been heavy all my life, then I lost 80# and I was in the best shape of my life, sadly I let myself go, I fell into a deep drepression and this blog is part of my therapy, the way I look at it.
This time arround the weight gain is affecting my health badly. I am on Crestor cause my cholesterol is bad. I my heart races all the time and it affects my mood. There are also other things that annoy me now more than before.
I have to jiggle into my pants. Yes, everything jiggles like Jello, not happy about that. And I know some people say I shouldn't worry about it. Yes I do, I know there is ladies out there that are big and beautiful and they are healthy. I am not healthy in any way shape or form. I wanna be healthy again. This doesn't mean that I am going on a super crash diet to look like those skinny bitches in Hollywood. No, I want to loose weight so I feel comfortable again, so I don't have to take medicine anymore, so I don't get out of breath walking my dog around the block. Those are things, that I am striving for. That is my main goal. And I am turning 40next year, so guess what I want to look hot on my 40th birthday.
So if you think I don't need to loose the weight that is your opinion, but I am not doing this for you. I am doing this for me. So FU.

Now this is this weeks Dinner Meal Plan:
Monday:
Roasted Cabbage with Rice and Steaks

Tuesday:
Quinoa Medley with Chicken Breast

Wednesday:
Spaghetti Squash with Tomato Sauce

Thursday:
Fajitas

Friday:
Homemade Pizza Margarita, with Tomoatos and fresh Mozarella and home made Pizza dough.

Saturday and Sunday depends if we are going to Baton Rouge or not.

a little setback, but we have a plan...

So I exercised on Tuesday and did Jumping Jacks, well I made a few mistakes, first one was... I was not wearing shoes, second one was... I haven't workout in ages... so the end result of this is, that I now have a fracture in my metatarsal in my left foot. Yup it's hilarious, so apparently right now exercise is bad for me. LOL

But I went to the grocery store, got really yummy healthy foods, they did not have sprouts, which made me sad, but anyways, since I can't workout for a while, I am going to eat really healthy.

Now for the plan...
I hate Cardio, I don't like to do Cardio, but it has to be done, cause it burns the calories. So I am also a big Supernatural fan. I started to watch the show on Netflix in January and got hooked, line and sinker.
There are 148 Episodes out right now ( Season 8 Starts October 3rd) so I figured I just watch one episode while I do Cardio, Yes I will even suffer thru the ones, I don't like.

So now I have plan for Cardio, the next is a plan for muscle toning.

One step at a time.