Day 9

Wow, what a week and a few days it has been.

I had some stress, but I managed to eat crap and cope instead with writing. I am actually quiet proud of that.

So things I have noticed so far.
I put on my pants this am and I didn't have to suck in to button and zip them. I noticed my t-shirt wasn't to tight around my arms.
I also noticed that it's been over a week that I took a nap in the afternoon. I am not nearly as tired as I used to be come 2pm.
I ate at a restaurant and I still lost weight. I am drinking a lot more water and hence my bathroom breaks are more often which equals more walking time. I think my kidney's are like WTF? Why do we suddenly have to work so hard? Cause I used to be able to go all day without drinking anything but 2 cups of coffee.
Going low carb is not as hard as I thought it would be.

I do see my goal and it's actually more of a pants size than a weight loss. I wanna be a 12 maybe even a 10 and I will be happy. Last time I did this in 8months I know I can do it again, I just don't know how long it will take.
The Body Combat program is 60 days, so we'll see.

Finding Motivation ...

• Today was one of those days.... where I had to dig deep to find motivation to do anything. I have been battlling depression for 4 years (well that's when I was diagnosed) I was on medication and seeing a therapist. And once I got rid of the toxic friend I got a lot better. There are still days, where I don't want to get out of bed. Today was one of those days. I started to read a story last night stayed up till past 1am to finish it and then was really tired in the morning. It was way past noon, when I finally decided to get my fat ass up and do something. So I worked and at 4 pm I had dug deep enough and felt guilty enough to go on a walk. I walked 2 miles with my dog and I am ok with that. :D The headache that I had is gone and I am feeling better. I also had a really healthy dinner, I made stir fry. I used Coconut Oil and I did not eat any rice. So I am good. I think maybe for dessert I have some fruit as I still have some calories left in my day.
• Yeah sometimes... you just have to dig deep to get the courage to workout and know it's for the best. YOU are responsible for your success, NOBODY else... Sometimes that is really hard and sometimes it's easier. It's never easy. Tonight is Supernatural on and I am going to bed after. So that tomorrow I feel good about hitting the gym for Combat at 9:30am. I want this so bad that I can taste it.
• I also went into my closet today and got my favorite pair of heels out. I want to wear them for my Photo OP with Jared. They are so cute and I want to get a dress to go with them preferrable in a size 12, if it's a 14 I am ok with that too. :D

a small snag

Doing two conventions in a row, was not a smart thing. Well it was smart for my business, but not smart for the weight loss front.
At the first convention I had gained 4lb., which I then proceeded to loose 2lb again. Then this past weekend at Anime Overload I did better. My friend Kazia came with me. And we decided to bring healthy foods. So that's what we did. We had oatmeal for Breakfast, boiled eggs, Chicken breast, sliced Turkey, cheese sticks and fruit in the cooler. We had also a variety of cereal bars for the girls and us just in case. So thank so her, I ate decent, I had a slice of Apple pie at my friends house, but I didn't pig out and had bad food all weekend. So I came home with no gain, no loss either, but hey I take it.
Then Monday came around and I woke up with the Con Crud, Today was the first day I felt like a human being again and I left my house at 7am to head to the gym. I swam for 40 mins and put 1250 m behind me. That's the farthest I've swam since I started to swim. I only stopped after every 10 laps to grab a drink of water and defog my goggles. After I went into the Sauna for 5mins and that was torture. But I feel good now. I am back to logging my food and exercise.
So back on track.