Day 10 reset

I got so busy on Friday and the weekend that I didn't workout and not particularly watched what I ate.

So I gained 2lb. back. I tried to do Day 10 workout, but couldn't finish it :( But I am doing it again tomorrow.

I have been waking up every day at 5:30am which really stinks. I also am procrastinating again which I hate. I can feel myself slipping into a depression, but I am doing my best to not letting this happen. There is so much good and positive in my life, so I am focusing on that.
It is not easy to function when this hits, but I am working on it.

Also I quit drinking water again which is so bad, so here i am with my big glass of water and a pretty straw.

I can do this!!!

The Road so far...

The past year has been a struggle, getting sick and injury, but 2015 is the year. I have motivation. There is a person that used to be in my life, that has given me the motivation to reach my goal. I also look like a beached Whale in my Jared Padalecki Photo Op. And I don't like it.
So I digress, here I am on Day 2 of Body Combat 90 Days.

I did Day 1 yesterday, had to modify some stuff, since it's been my first day in forever to actually workout. But I made it thru the 30mins and I felt awesome. I didn't feel like i had to take a nap. And after the workout I cried. Yup I cried, but not because I hurt, but I felt bad. How could I have let myself go? How could I have let this person, control my life? Why did I ever quit working at the gym? All these guilty feelings came up and I cried.
But then I stood up, shook them off and was proud, I made the first step. I finished Day 1.

I am about to do the Day 2 workout and then hit the Grocery Store. I have to get food to fuel the fight. I really like that Les Mills has Combat now to do at home. I missed doing it and I wanna stay with the good fight and eat right again.

I can do it. I don't want to go thru drastic measures like surgery. Cause after surgery you still have to change your whole lifestyle which you have to do anyways to loose weight.

I can do this... I've done it before. My goal is to get to this again:

I know it's a long road, but I will get there eventually. Thanks for sticking with me reading all this. I try my best this time around to blog consistently.

Finding Motivation ...

• Today was one of those days.... where I had to dig deep to find motivation to do anything. I have been battlling depression for 4 years (well that's when I was diagnosed) I was on medication and seeing a therapist. And once I got rid of the toxic friend I got a lot better. There are still days, where I don't want to get out of bed. Today was one of those days. I started to read a story last night stayed up till past 1am to finish it and then was really tired in the morning. It was way past noon, when I finally decided to get my fat ass up and do something. So I worked and at 4 pm I had dug deep enough and felt guilty enough to go on a walk. I walked 2 miles with my dog and I am ok with that. :D The headache that I had is gone and I am feeling better. I also had a really healthy dinner, I made stir fry. I used Coconut Oil and I did not eat any rice. So I am good. I think maybe for dessert I have some fruit as I still have some calories left in my day.
• Yeah sometimes... you just have to dig deep to get the courage to workout and know it's for the best. YOU are responsible for your success, NOBODY else... Sometimes that is really hard and sometimes it's easier. It's never easy. Tonight is Supernatural on and I am going to bed after. So that tomorrow I feel good about hitting the gym for Combat at 9:30am. I want this so bad that I can taste it.
• I also went into my closet today and got my favorite pair of heels out. I want to wear them for my Photo OP with Jared. They are so cute and I want to get a dress to go with them preferrable in a size 12, if it's a 14 I am ok with that too. :D

Weigh In... Sam Winchester is tough on me...

I had weigh in this am at 266. Which is 9lb. since January 15th... So yes I am getting there one step at a time. I know this weight didn't get eaten back on over night, so it will take a while to get it off. But in hindsight almost 10lb in a month is actually pretty good.
So what did I change? WELL: I started to track my foods again. Yes I still have pizza on Mondays, but I have chicken on mine and I make sure I only eat 2 pieces. I drink a lot of water at least 64oz. a day. I also started to go to the gym again. I do a full body workout on Tuesdays with some cardio and then Wednesday and Friday I do Body Combat which is awesome... The two instructors at the YMCA are amazing. Then on the weekends I walk at the Renaissance Faire... this weekend I walked 16miles. I also make sure I have a good breakfast and I don't buy faire food... I eat pretty healhty... with the stuff I bring. So yes, it is possible to camp and eat healthy. I am at a really good place in my head space finally it took to long, but I am getting there. Who knew that recovering from a really bad place can take this long. I also realized that there are still things in my life I have to re learn from what I had been told in the past, but I also can do that. I have a really great support group of friends on FB and we are all trying to loose weight, so that is awesome as well.
Oh and that same group is doing a little thing, we are walking to Mordor together. Each week we log how many miles we walked and then combine them in our Journey to Mordor. We left Hobbiton a little over week ago and are on our way to Rivendell. There were times this weekend where I didn't want to go back out but then was like Oh Shoot we gotta walk to Mordor... So off I went. If you would like to know more about this check out this cool site... http://www.nerdfitness.com/blog/2012/07/23/walking/

Today I took a rest day and apparently I needed it, I fell asleep reading and took a 2hrs nap Body is also a bit sore all over, but drinking the water will help with this and flush out some of it.

That's it for now...

Music to workout...

I do like to listen to music while I workout. But I do enjoy the quiet when I swim, it's so serene. And then on the Treadmill it's pretty neat that I can watch Supernatual while walking. It's like trying to catch the boys, but never actually get to them.
So here are some of my workout favorites:
Survivor -- Eye of the Tiger
Bon Jovi -- Keep the Faith
Kansas -- Carry on my Wayward son
Warrant -- Cherry Pie
Pink -- Reasons
Sugar Ray -- Fly
Def Leppard -- Rock of Ages
Fallout Boys -- Sugar Were going down
Robbie Williams -- Candy
Robbie Williams -- Rock DJ
Fun. -- Carry On
Katrina and the Waves -- Walking on Sunshine

That's about it...

Have fun working out.

Workouts...

I am so happy to say, that out of the 12x I went to the gym this month 9 have been in the past two weeks. yup last week I went and this week 5x. I am enjoying working out again, I remember that's how it was the first time I lost the weight. I am still mad at myself for letting this happening. But I am also proud that I now am working really hard to changing it.
Today was one of those days, where things just didn't flow right. On my way to the gym, a guy tried to run me off the road, I hit a bird with the car. But then my Pilates session rocked, I learned new moves and laughed my head off. Then onto the treadmill for 50mins of fatburn/cardio. It helps that I can watch Supernatural while doing Cardio.
So then I got home and find out that the post office messed up one of my packages, and just slapped my label onto an envelope and my customer got two bills. Not the Pillow cases she ordered, those are missing now. Oh and to top it off, my tablets screen cracked and it doesn't work anymore. So I need to find a place to fix that.
But back to working out. I am really already seeing improvement in my endurance and I am not so easy out of breath after a workout.
Swimming is an amazing workout. The first time I swam 15mins. Then 20mins and the last two times I swam 30mins. My goal is to work up to 45mins - 1hrs.

So that's my workouts at the moment.

Glad to be back in the gym :D

sore and headache...

4 days in a row at the gym. I feel great, not overly sore, but I know tomorrow I will be. Bootcamp is always killing me. Today was lots of Cardio, I had to modify some of the moves, but it is fun.
I think I have one more boot camp and then that's done.
What I don't like about high intensity workouts, they give me headaches. I am usually fine for a couple of hours but then the headache sneaks up and I know it's from working out. The cure for that is usually lots of water. 32oz. of ice cold water seemed to have eased the pain a bit. I am definitely taking an Ibu-profen before bed, not just for the headache but also for the soreness.
My abs are sore, inner thighs and my shoulders are slowly getting there. So tomorrow I won't be going to the gym. Cause I am going to the dentist and then afterwards we are heading to Austin. I have a fun weekend planned, but I also know that I have to watch what I eat and I love that my friend Mylissa, asked me to go and workout with her on Saturday at her gym. So I am packing my swim suit and hope to get some laps in.
Sneakers are going in the bag as well, just in case.

Also for motivation, I printed out the following picture. Yup that is me in 2007 I weighed 185lb. was a size 12. I love the way I felt and looked. So one is hanging in the bathroom, one on the fridge and it's my new profile picture on FB.

So drink lots of water peeps.