Am I turning into a Glutard???

So for the past month I have been trying very hard to stay away from grains. I have not eaten a slice of bread in a very long time and Pasta, forget it. Not because I am gluten intolerant, but to aid with weight loss.

So on Monday I had made Cabbage and Pasta for dinner. I cook my cabbage with bacon and ground beef and serve it over pasta. I didn't eat pasta that day. Yesterday for lunch I had the left overs and I didn't think anything of it and ate the pasta. OUCH big mistake. I got the worst tummy ache ever.
Then today I had two slices of toast cause I had a really crappy night, I got all of 2hrs of sleep and I was starving. Then for lunch I had a bagel, that was the dumbest idea. I again have a tummy ache. So guess what I am going to stay away from grain products.

Does that make me a Glutard I don't know, but I noticed that I am feeling better when I stay away from them and that I seem to have more energy.

If you are offended by the world Glutard I am sorry, but I have many friends that are Gluten intolerant and guess what they don't mind.

Happy loosing

Ranting...

This is going to be long and dragged out and has nothing to do with my weight loss, but it was a long time coming.

So almost a year ago I said "No" to a person that back then I thought of was my best friend. Well she did not take it well and the friendship came to an end. I really kept my tongue. Sadly we are still tied to a few things and they are being nasty about things and I post that on facebook, cause they are messing with my credit.
In hindsight, I could write so many nasty thing about this person, but I haven't and I won't I am a better person than that. But enough is enough, I am really sick of reading all the time how I was such a bad influence and negative energy in her life. Why the Fuck did you keep me arround for 4yrs if I was such an awful person? I've done everything to make your life easier and all I get is cheap shots at my character.

Now this weekend proofed that this "Divorce" was the best thing in my life. I've seen people I havent' seen in a while and they knew me during the "Friendship" and they looked at me and told me that they can tell I am so much happier, well yes I am. I am the happiest I've been in a while. I don't run ragged anymore. I can do what I want. I am creative again, I am having fun.

So why does someone harbor such nasty feelings? I don't know, but I am just tired of it. I am a better person than she makes me out to be and those that know me, know it too.

Ok I am done ranting now.

Small Steps, one at a time...

So I've been working out and the scale had not budged much, at least not the one at the gym. I have the horrible habit of weighing myself every morning during the week. (can't on the weekends, cause I live in a tent out in the woods). Yes I know it's not healthy, but it gives me the feeling of control over it. This morning it read 265lb. Woohoo, that is almost at 11lb. now.
But success can also be measured in other ways. As I have written before I am part of the Fairy Cast at a wonderful Renaissance Faire, called Sherwood Forest Faire out in Paige, TX. So we do a lot of walking that is why I normally don't workout on Mondays. Anyways, this morning I woke up and I realized, hey wait a minute, I am not nearly as tired, sore or feeling like being hit by a truck. So I must be getting in much better shape. I still woke up with allergies and a cough from being outside all weekend, but that is besides the point. I am doing ok. It made me smile. Oh and another thing that made me all fuzzy and warm inside, was the bodice I made for my costume. It laces up in the front and at the beginning, I would say, there was at leas a 2 inch difference between the front panel. This weekend I was able to lace it up and it was almost closed all the way. So I must have lost inches as well.
So what I want to say is, I should not obsess about the numbers on the scale, cause success can be measured so many ways and that is an advise I should take to heart, especially since it is not just for weight loss but also for my personal life.
These past 8 months have been such a blessing, and I know every so often there will be stone thrown into my way. But I am now a firm believer that I am on my way again to become strong and healthy and not just physically. No also mentally.

Thank for reading:

Another Monday...

The last two weeks, I didn't workout much, well not entirely true, walking up the hills at the faire is kicking me in the Ass.
I met with my Trainer on Wednesday and the workout was gruesome, but it pais off. My clothes are fitting me looser. The scale sais I am down to 268 this morning, but I am ok with that. It is a slow porcess.

So this weekend... Faire is the most fun I have had in a while. The people in the Fae Cast are amazing and I have made so many friends. Friends that actually care for me and don't take things I do for them for Granted, just to demand more. Friends that truly appreciate me. This journey has been so amazing in my healing process. My mental health is better than it has been in I dare say years.
What is even more amazing, my husband, who is not a faire person at all has come out the last two weekends and is even considering to be a drow at some point this season.
So yes life is good. The kids have adjust to the new home and we are again happy.

So where does that make a difference in a weight loss journey?

It is important that you mental mindset is in line with you healhty life style. If you just want to try then you won't be successful. I've been trying for 2yrs now to loose the weight, but due to circumstances, my head never was in it. Now the game has changed. I am watching what I eat. I am drinking tons of water and I do go and workout. So now that all the stars are aligned, I know there will be success.

Off we go and get healthy.

Going downhill

Hahaha, got ya, well it's going down hill, but in a good way.
I stepped on the scale on Friday and I was down to 267lb. That is like 8lb since we started this journey after some ups and downs. Yes I know I still have a long ways to go, but hey, I am slowly getting there. Rome wasn't built in one day.
Sherwood Forest Faire Weekend 1 was amazing, did a lot of walking, but then on Sunday I came down with a migraine. I think all the pre-show stress got to me and put me down for the count. But hey all is well today.
So as I am sitting here I see a lot of my friends talking about home delivery of organic produce. I think I want to try this. I wanna learn to cook more seasonal and it's a great way to support local farmers. So I am looking into Greenling as one of the companies I wanna go with. Each week they will send you a box with produce and it's not that expensive. So I am really contemplating that or the one where I can choose what I want. We will see what's going to happen.
But yes I missed all of last week in Training not feeling well. So tomorrow we are headed back to the gym to Git R. Done

Another week...

I know I've been slacking on writing, but I've been busy with workouts, and getting ready to be the Chocolate Fairy at Sherwood Forest Faire. I am having so much fun it is just indescribable.
So as for food and such...
I did loose 1lb. not the result I wanted, but better than nothing and then on Wednesday we measured my BMI and all that good stuff and yup we are right on Target. I wanna loose 103lb. the goal is to get as close as possible to 199 by my 40th birthday. I did really well over the weekend, but then was sick with Allergies Monday and Tuesday. So eating sucked on top of that, my period showed up a week early. Yes it's all the good things at once.
But that aside, I had another breakthrough, I changed my Training Sessions to Monday and Friday, like I used to have them and then on Wednesdays will workout by myself. I also will go in on Tuesdays and Thursdays and do 45mins of Cardio. I love that I can watch Supernatural while on the elliptical or threadmill. So that is bonus.
But the realization was, I love my husband, I really do, but I can't workout in the evenings. No energy. So instead, I get Lars on the bus and then head to the gym. I am done by 9:30 am and I still got time to do stuff for SewGeekAustin and other things.
So yeah realize when your best time to workout is, cause that is important.

Happy Loosing

2 weeks in...

After 3 Training Sessions with my Mistress Carol, I can see improvement in my fitness level. I lost 1lb. Yeah me!!! My mindset is in the right spot. I haven't been in this place for a very long time, but being back feels great. Good things have come our way.
Back to the fitness level thing. For the past 3 sessions, Carol had me do step ups 20x each leg 4 sets. The first time, I wanted to cry, cause I let myself get to that point. Today I had to do that exercise again and lo and behold, I was able to actually talk to Carol without having to stop to catch my breath. So my trainer even said, we are going to move on, on Tuesday. I really enjoy training with her, I know it takes actually 28 days to form a habit, so I really need to work even harder on the diet thing.
So anybody that tells you that they changed their life after a couple of days with some diet / lifestyle, I call BULL. Yes there is so much new information about Nutrition out there since I was on this Journey last time, but it still takes you and your body a while to get used to any change.
I used to tell my clients I am only with them 1 -3 hrs a week, they need to do their homework and 80% of that is what you put into your mouth.
This time my nutrtion approach is, low Carb, High Healthy Fats and High Protein. Now I love Bread and Pasta, but I should not be eating it anymore. So yeah I had a loaf of Ezekiel Bread in the fridge, did I throw it out? No I had one slice for breakfast instead of two. Now it's gone and I won't buy anymore. I don't do Sandwiches for lunch anymore. I make me a salad, with Shrimp or Tuna. Or i just have sliced Veggies, Hummus and Turkey breast lunchmeat. Things like that. I look at it, that it is like when I was pregnant with my kids. I had gestational Diabetes. 1 Carb count was 15gr. I am now allowed to eat 100gr of carbs. I try to eat 100 gr of protein and healhty fats, like Avocados, nuts and Almond Milk.
So it is not as hard as I thought it would be, especially since I mostly plan out my meals and try to eat my carbs in the morning. I eat 1 fruit each days. Raspberries are awesome, cause they are low on sugar.
We'll see where this Journey leads, but I am looking foward to it, especially since my passion for working out seems to have returned. It also helps that Supernatural is on, and I can sneak a peek at the boys during... but shhh, don't tell anybody.

Laters