Weighing in...

We are almost done with the first week, but weigh in was this morning and lo and behold, I am down 2lb. #266, that made me happy. I cheated on Wednesday and had ordered pepperoni rolls from Double Dave's, so and of course I didn't eat 2, I had 4. I know it sucks, but hey I decided to be brutally honest here on this blog, cause otherwise I won't get anywhere.

Later today, I will sit down and make my meal plan for the coming week, probably again with new recipes. The water drinking is doing much better, and I think my kidneys are getting slowly adjusted from being on a dry spell ( I could go almost the whole day with not drinking anything) to being flooded. lol so yes, I am running to the ladies room a lot.

What also is keeping me sane, is work. Working on creating new products for my shop SewGeekAustin, making jewelry and coming up with other new items. Necklaces will be added soon. But this work, is keeping me from brooding to much about how I was wronged and being angry. I was the one that let this happen, I am to blame no one else. So being creative, helps me a lot. And it is nice to have some change to spend on new crafty stuff. lol

Next will be adding more exercise to this program, it is so silly especially since I was a trainer once in a galaxy far far away and loved to workout, now I have a really hard time. But hey, work in progress, right?

So we will see where this next week will take us, one step at a time.

falling down and back up in the saddle

So things have been crazy and I have been stressed, we didn't have a moving date, not did we know where the kids start would start school needles to say. I am a stress eater, so that's what I did.

Then this past Saturday, I got on the scale and almost had a heart attack. 268lb. Yes you read that right. I have gained over 80lb. since December 2008. WTF? you might ask? Well there were lots of things, but the main thing was that I lost myself. I thought I was helping someone else doing good and in the mean time I totally left myself standing in the rain and I almost dragged my family with me, without an umbrella.
But after the flood comes the sun, right? So I found a beach that rescued me, and that was my sister Martina.  She pulled ashore and now it's been 3 months.We are moving, Steve go a new job, that is amazing, (which he deserves), we are building a house, and finally go a moving date,  I got released from therapy, I don't need meds anymore and I am now finally to the point where I am ready to take care of my temple again. My spirit is much better, so it's time to take care of the house.

I made a meal plan from all new recipes, which is a great idea, cause I love to cook and try out new recipes. So what a perfect combination. I am an avid Pinterester, so I picked all recipes that I had pinned to one of my boards. If you want to follow me, this is me. I found some really good ones.
Steve is gone for the week at the new office, so the kids and I are doing this. So far so good.

Also a big goal is, I am getting up at 6am, get Lars ready and then do some housework, take the dog for a walk and not go back to bed, like I used to. I am also going to bed no later than 10pm. (cross your fingers)

During the day I work on my etsy orders and new product. Go visit SewGeekAustin there are lots of fun and geeky things to befound.

Oh and one more thing, I think my kidneys are totally spazing out, cause I stopped drinking water during the day. Yeah I know, don't ask, it's stupid, if I got like 2 glasses that was a lot. Now I bought me one of those jugs that have 2.2 liters and put some lemon in it and I have to drink it all by the time I got to bed. No I don't jug if I didn't get there, I just feel like an epic fail. NOT. It's a goal.

So there, the next weigh in, will be on Friday, so I hope I will have good news by then.
TTFN

4 Days in

And I must say counting point is so much easier than I thought. I've been doing really good. Today I went over my daily point allowance cause I had a beer. I do still have a ton of weekly points left so I wasn't to worried.
I went to Chipotle today and usually I get the Burrito, but not today. I got the Burrito Bowl, with brown rice, black beans, chicken, pico and guacamole. 15pts total, I think I did good. Dinner was not good, I had two slices of Pizza and a beer, hence the extra points.
The good thing is the first time I had lost so much weight, it was the tracking that helped me the most. I worked out a lot, but the tracking was what kept me in line. Cause when I started gaining weight again, I was still working out, but I did not keep track of what I put in my mouth. Also I am drinking a lot more water. So I think I am on the right track.

WW here I come...

I joined Weight Watchers online on Friday. So far so good. I am counting the points and log my food, it's pretty easy.

I am also making sure I drink a lot of water, that is important. So now I only need to get back to working out and we are golden. *sigh

wow, what a month

So in the past month, Steve got a new job, and we spent this past weekend in Houston to try to find a house, there was not much choice on the already built house department. I got really frustrated, but then on Friday we went to look at new constructions. I really liked the model home, and Steve liked a two story, but we didn't even look at the one that in the end is probably close to our Dream Home.
It's a one story, but it has some of the features that Steve liked in the two story. Since it only has the framing up so far, we get to go to the design center and choose, flooring, paints, light fixtures etc. Which we are so excited about. This whole moving thing got me a bit stressed out. So sadly I've been Stress eating, and not working out, so that has to change. I am reading the flat belly diet and see if I like it. (it lets you have chocolate) hopefully I can get back into the groove. I know these past 4yrs I was weak and didn't have the strength to stand up for myself. My sister had to come and get me out of the Dark place I was in. But now that I am better and in a great place mentally,  this seems to be a wonderful opportunity to start afresh. So that is what I am going to do. My etsy store is going great, I am reading the 5 languages of love with my wonderful husband, my kids a doing great. So it is time again to take care of myself. I was so happy when I was a size 12 and now I am back into an 18. I hate it. I feel FAT!!!! I don't wanna be FAT!!!!
So this blog will be my bitch post, since I can't bitch anywhere else. lol

So reader's beware.

It's Monday, and I did pretty good on the food today. I am logging again. I am also quitting my gym membership and start working out to P90X2. Steve also informed me they have a gym at his work that I can join. They also have personal trainers, which is awesome. I also intent to get certified again.
Tomorrow I have no plans, so in the morning I am going for a long walk with the dog, before it gets to hot.

news and stress

Wow, what a week we had. The company my hubby has been working for got bought out by Haliburton. They also offered him a job and now it looks like we are moving to Houston within the next two month. School starts August 27th and I want the kids to start school there. So needless to say, I haven't been at the gym since Wednesday. I've been trying to keep the eating healthy. But I really need to get better on using loseit app on my phone. It makes tracking you food so much easier.
I am just so sick of having a closet full of clothes and nothing fits. So this is getting down to serious business.
Tomorrow, I am going to the gym in the am. I have plans on a pedi with friends.